I haven’t posted in quite some time, and for good reason. Everything fell apart. Business deals, plans that had been seemingly set in stone, and ideas that I had put all my weight into. Even my computer decided to crash! Yep, everything just went kaboom.
The one thing I am beginning to realise is that life will knock you to your feet if you are hell-bent on running in the wrong direction. And I was. I wanted so desperately for things to work out according to Plan A, and to be done on time and to perfection. But life doesn’t work that way. I wanted things to work out with my business so much that I ignored red flags because I didn’t want to believe that I could have put my trust in a business partner that I instinctively knew wouldn’t hold true to his word. I knew the whole time. The. Whole. Damn. Time.
Life intervened, and everything blew up. And you know what? It is ok. It is ok because there was a huge part of me that needed everything to fall apart so that I could sit down and figure out what I REALLY wanted. The prospect of money can fog everything, and there is something healing about having to start from scratch.
So, now I am at the point of surrender. I have let go and simply allow myself to take a break and take care of myself. I can’t control my path, just as much as I can’t control the people around me. But, I can decide to release and surrender into this moment and give myself the chance to see what the next steps are. I believe that things will fall into place now that all the debris has been swept away. Hell, even my computer has a new hard drive and a clean slate!
Maybe I need a new hard drive. I think it is about time to reboot.