There are moments that can knock us off our feet. You can pretend that you don’t see it coming, but you would be fooling yourself….because we always know when the fall is about to happen. For me, it happens when I am running on empty both physically and emotionally. Trying to please everybody and failing miserablely. It can start with misunderstandings, or miscommunications, and often entails me trying to avoid a confrontation at all costs. Until the fall is inevitable, and feelings get hurt. Sometimes so much that you feel broken for days, and you feel like a fool because the tears won’t stop.
The sad part is that it could have been avoided. It can always be avoided if we are honest with ourselves and the people we love. But we run from confrontation until it exploads out of us like a raging storm and we say things we don’t mean. We hurt eachother because we no longer know how to speak to eachother without frustration and blame. Friends, family, and lovers…..it happens to us all.
The hardest part is the aftermath. The day after the tears, when you have to pick yourself back up and try to fix the broken pieces. You have to hope, you have to absolutely believe, that love will heal everyone’s wounds.
Because we hurt eachother. It is inevitable and heartbreaking. But love is stronger than those moments when we are weak and say horrible things we can’t take back. That is what gets us back up. That is what keeps us moving forward.
“We like to pretend that our generous impulses come naturally. But the reality is we often become our kindest, most ethical selves only by seeing what it feels like to be a selfish jackass first. It’s the reason… we have to get burned before we understand the power of fire; the reason our most meaningful relationships are so often those that continued beyond the very juncture at which they came the closest to ending”.